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Suffice it to say that I am an ardent particularist. What this means is that I like to look at the particulars (Duh!). So for example, I like the deep furrows on a withered tree trunk, the jet black curly hair of a woman walking past me, the swing of a very short skirt on the behind of a girl in front of me, the sunflower like irises in my husband's blue pupils, the soft and gentle curves of his body, the shape of a pebble that skirts off the tyres of a truck at a construction site, the toc-toc-toc of the table tennis ball on the table, the feel of a full mango fruit in the palm of your hand, a bowl of translucent, red, pomegranate seeds, the speckled sunlight on a patch of grass under a tree, the deep yearning for someone you care about and love, the deep sense of grief when you have to forget someone you love, the mixture of white steamed rice and pink oleander petals strewn on the cold dark stone tile of the temple, the smell of a decaying banana leaf, the pungent smell of a raw mango just fallen from the tree, the clang of utensils and the clamour of sundry voices and stray dogs infused with the smell of boiling tea as India wakes to life every morning, and so on...

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

I, Body

My rebellious body
Bulging, protruding, bursting.
Burning, boiling, inflamed.
Wailing in anguish,
Wet with searing tears of pain.
Prematurely grey, numb, stiff, deprived, panting.

Rebelling and taunting my
brain, my mind, my intellect,
my desires, my ambitions.
Screaming for recognition.
Demanding respect.
Begging for kindness.

Absorbing my emotions.
Defending my self against the
onslaught of abuse and humiliation.
Surviving, conceiving, producing
my child, my wisdom,
some self-respect, some self-esteem.

Skeptical, teaching me
to draw back the veils of illusions
of love, relationships, intelligence, hope.
She sent me spiraling into the valley of depression

Until

I became her.

I became my Body.

--GST

posted by Gayatri | 9:14 PM

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